Snack-Tech

Nothing more than just a memory
Something i wanna go back to and revisit, experience it again,
Something that haunts me as I sleep
This memory was something just so small and simple, and it touched me so much,
Of two years ago, maybe longer, who knows? But it was just simply laying down at a park
Laying next to a tree, sitting with her
Doing nothing much that admiring the scenery
And nothing more than staring at each other

And in your eyes, i stare deep into your soul, searching for that place that stores memories of me
And i just look at them and smile, feel that sense of comfort and as a place where I belong

I cant have that feeling anymore
If i stare at you now, I see nothing but a pool of shallowness and bitter memories
There's nothing left in that I could see any comfort from
I cannot stare into that soul any longer
For that I recently question if what happened long ago can happen again
Its not, it wont, ill make sure of it

For the next one I view, I see nothing but a thick and confusing fog
I cannot find comfort around you
I look when your not looking, and I'm just filled with uncertainty, just plain confused
I know you don't have the feelings that I (may or may not have) for you
That's fine
But thoughts always cross my mind, that "what if"
That "what if" that only stays in my dreams...
Maybe I'm just confused
Scratch that, I am confused

I really don't know where I'm heading with this feeling, I'm trying to look into as many souls as i can
Try to see how I'm depicted to each person
See where I stand within peoples lives

And I see for most people I'm not very far....

These thoughts have been going through my head this past week, and i never got around to jotting them down till now
Doing so helps me sleep easier at night

Because i need to stop sleeping during the day...